I don’t know, after twenty years of full time education graduating with a Bachelor degree, plus twenty three years of work and life, I still don’t know! Why? Why do I fall so easily? What is the hell wrong with me? Why? Every single steps of my life had been filled with purpose and self assurance. To live without consequences is irresponsible. To give up the life I have built is the destruction of my face, my identity. No. Enough. I am acting like a child. I will pick myself up, and keep walking. Simple.