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Xuân Diệu | I’ve killed you (1)

Xuân Diệu (2/2/1916 – 18/12/1985) born Ngô Xuân Diệu, Trảo Nha was another pen name, from Trảo Nha village, Can Lộc district, Hà Tĩnh province, but he was born in his mother’s hometown Hoà Phước commune, Tuy Phước district, Bình Định province, where his father Ngô Xuân Thọ worked as a teacher and where his father met his mother Nguyễn Thị Hiệp. he lived in Tuy Phước till he was 11 years old(1927) before moving to Quy Nhơn for school. Around 1936-1937, he attained his baccalaureate in Huế. In 1937, Xuân Diệu studied Law in Hà Nội while he wrote for a newspaper, between 1938-1940 inclusively he was a member of Tự lực văn đoàn, in the same period shared an attic with Huy Cận at 40 Hàng Than.

Nguyễn Thị Phương Trâm, the poet and translator, born 1971 in Phu Nhuan, Saigon, Vietnam. The pharmacist currently lives and works in Western Sydney, Australia.

By Xuân Diệu, translation by Nguyễn Thị Phương Trâm

I’ve killed you

I’ve killed you, I’ve buried you in my heart

In the truth from now on I can’t love you

Something has moved on, something is lost

We stare at each other, four knowing eyes?

Oh! Dearest! You are whom I adore most

The butterflies resides to this very moment in my gut

My heart pounding tripping over time

Remembering the heated passion

Remembering the radiant moments in our two lives

Remembering how  heaven and earth were opened to me

Remembering endlessly 

A magical time.

Oh! Away from you, I would fall into an abyss

My life without you, cold and numb

But if I’m me, you’re you, then us will be something else

Us: two strangers – that’s not us!

I’ve killed you, I’ve buried you in my heart

Every night I would walk around you crying

I wish you would forgive me 

I still love you like the first time we’ve met

So why are we still apart?

Because you’re stubborn

Because I no longer know

The way back to your heart

After I’ve killed you, I’ve continued to love you day and night.

You’ve  killed me, in which garbage dump have you thrown my body.

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JANUARY 2022

Anh đã giết em

Anh đã giết em, anh chôn em vào trái tim anh

Từ đây anh không được yêu em ở trong sự thật

Một cái gì đã qua, một cái gì đã mất

Ta nhìn nhau, bốn mắt biết làm sao?

Ôi! Em mến yêu! Em vẫn là người anh yêu mến nhất

Cho đến bây giờ ruột anh vẫn thắt

Tim anh vẫn đập như vấp thời gian

Nhớ bao nhiêu yêu mến nồng nàn,

Nhớ đoạn đời hai ta rạng rỡ

Nhớ trời đất cho anh mở

Nhớ

Muôn thuở thần tiên.

Ôi! Xa em, anh rơi vào vực không cùng

Đời anh không em, lạnh lùng tê buốt

Nhưng còn anh, còn em, mà đôi ta đã khác

Ta: hai người xa lạ – phải đâu ta!

Anh đã giết em, anh chôn em vào trái tim anh

Đêm nào anh cũng đi quanh em mà khóc

Anh vẫn ước được em tha thứ

Anh vẫn yêu em như thuở ban đầu

Thế mà tại sao ta vẫn xa nhau?

Tại em cố chấp

Tại anh đã mất

Con đường đi tới trái tim em

Anh đã giết em rồi, anh vẫn ngày đêm yêu mến.

Em đã giết anh rồi, em vứt xác anh đâu.

Xuân Diệu (2/2/1916 – 18/12/1985) born Ngô Xuân Diệu, Trảo Nha was another pen name, from Trảo Nha village, Can Lộc district, Hà Tĩnh province, but he was born in his mother’s hometown Hoà Phước commune, Tuy Phước district, Bình Định province, where his father Ngô Xuân Thọ worked as a teacher and where his father met his mother Nguyễn Thị Hiệp. he lived in Tuy Phước till he was 11 years old(1927) before moving to Quy Nhơn for school. Around 1936-1937, he attained his baccalaureate in Huế. In 1937, Xuân Diệu studied Law in Hà Nội while he wrote for a newspaper, between 1938-1940 inclusively he was a member of Tự lực văn đoàn, in the same period shared an attic with Huy Cận at 40 Hàng Than.

source: thivien.net

 

By Nguyễn Thị Phương Trâm

There's magic in translating a body of work from one language to another.

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